My Cookie Jar LOL

Here is the cookie jar I was talking about in a earlier post I call it my cookie jar full of tea bags I've had this thing for what will be a yr this X-mas and there has never been cookies in it lol

Success

I got this in my email and figured I would share it cause its true

The road to success is not straight.
There is a curve called Failure,
a loop called Confusion,
speed bumps called Friends,
red lights called Enemies,
caution lights called Family.
You will have flats called Jobs.
But, if you have a spare called Determination,
an engine called Perseverance,
& insurance called Faith,
you will make it to a place called Success

UGHHHHHH..Need I Say More

As I sit here it is a whoppin 26 degrees outside and the wind chill is 17 I must say I hate snow with a passion I lived back east in Massachusetts for 20 years( got tired of snow up past my knees) then I had four sun soaked years in Nevada(I miss Vegas) & now here I am in snowy cold Washington I have to say this is the only place I have lived that in the same month can it flood from all the rain and then turn around and snow so much they cancel school and people are leaving their cars on the side of the roads left and right MK(the boyfriend) took some pics lastnight and this morning I figured I would share them with you so you can enjoy some snow I will be back later with another post and yes this time I promise I will be...

Post Thanksgiving Post

Well I had a great Thanksgiving I didn't overeat and I didn't over load up on sweets I had a slice of pumkin pie with some cool-whip but I am proud of myself for not going wild lol...We have a slew of leftovers we had ham instead of turkey..I've had enough of Tom Turkey as a child lol I'm all about Henry Ham these days there was garlic and chive mashed potatoes, plain mashed potatoes, sweet potatoes, stuffing,baked mac and cheese, collard greens, scalloped potatoes, green beans with mushroom sauce god lol I think that's it..Thank goodness one holiday down and only one more to go and its all over..I am not in a festive mood this year the older I get the less into Christmas I am I love baking and giving it away to people but the gift giving and everything is getting riduculous..in the boyfriends family alone there are 15 people not even close to that many in mines lol..Every year people ask me what I want and I never know I am on a big reading kick (got a new book tell you about it in the next post)so I usually say a giftcard to a bookstore or something like that you can never have to many books well it seems people never listen I end up with something that is way to big for our one bedroom apartment( and mind you the people giving these huge things are people who have seen our place) lol or something I will never have a use for lol so it sits in the closet..I have to say my most prized possession from last year is a gift I got from from boyfriend's oldest sister she got it for me its a Winnie The Pooh cookie jar(full of tea bags sorry no cookies) I am a Winne the Pooh fanatic you can't but love Pooh Bear... I am a New Years kind of person wether I am home or with friends it doesn't matter I have always like New Years its up there with my other favorite holiday August 4th(mark your calendars lol) yup that's my birthday no matter how old I get I love my birthday as long as I am around to enjoy them I will (and yes to me my birthday is a holiday lol and yours should be for you to)..But I have already made a pact with a friend of mines 2007 is gonna be a good year for me even if I have to mame or kill someone(hopefully neither of those will have to happen lol)..2007 is my year of a healthier and happier me this is the year of RAE lol...anyone wanna come along feel free there is enough room for everyone(in case your wondering no I am not drunk lol)...Well that is all for now I will be back to post more later if you get a chance check out my post on Emotional eating all comments are welcomed

To You & Yours

I hope you all have a wonderful, safe & happy holiday

Getting to Know You

I saw this on Angelfish's Blog and it looked fun so I figured I would borrow it and try it here lol...

DO YOU SNORE? Yes, well the boyfriend says I do
ARE YOU A LOVER OR A FIGHTER? Both
WHAT’S YOUR WORST FEAR? Not being able to lose this weight
AS A KID, WERE YOU A LEGO MANIAC? No, but my sister was
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF “REALITY” TV? Can't stand it
DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS? No
WERE YOU A CUTE BABY? Yea I was and so small lol, damn what happened
IS THE SINGLE LIFE FOR YOU? If I had to do it again I could but I like having a boyfriend
HAVE YOU EVER BUNGEE JUMPED? No but when I get to my health weight I want to.
ANY SECRET TALENTS? Solving other people's problems playing the trumpet and sax fairly ok and I know the states in alphabetical order
WHAT’S YOUR IDEAL VACATION SPOT? Vegas or Hawaii
CAN YOU SWIM? Nope
HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVIE DONNIE DARKO? No.
DO YOU GIVE A DAMN ABOUT THE OZONE? Yes,
HOW MANY LICKS DOES IT TAKE TO GET TO THE CENTER OF A TOOTSIE POP? 20 maybe or none if you have strong enough teeth to just bite through it
CAN YOU SING THE ALPHABET BACKWARDS? No,
DO YOU PREFER ELECTRIC OR MANUAL PENCIL SHARPENER? Electric.
WHAT’S YOUR STAND ON HUNTING? It's ok
IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE? Yes
DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? Sometimes.
WHAT ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO? Wool, The Shell on some Nuts
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID, “I LOVE YOU”? A few min ago when boyfriend left for work.
DO YOU CRY AT WEDDINGS? No
HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS? Scrambled
ARE BLONDES DUMB? I know some smart ones
WHERE DOES THE OTHER SOCK END UP? The sock/underware gnomes eat them
WHAT TIME IS IT? 10:44 P.M.
DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME? A few
IS MCDONALD’S DISGUSTING? No I like their salads
WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WERE IN A CAR? Been awhile
DO YOU PREFER BATHS OR SHOWERS? Showers
IS SANTA CLAUS REAL? Yes
DO YOU LIKE TO HAVE YOUR NECK KISSED? Yes.
ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK? No, I love it
WHAT ARE YOU ADDICTED TO?
CRUNCHY OR CREAMY PEANUT BUTTER? don't like peanut butter
CAN YOU CRACK YOUR NECK? No.
HAVE YOU EVER RIDDEN IN AN AMBULANCE? Yes.
IS DRUG FREE THE WAY TO BE? Yes
ARE YOU A HEAVY SLEEPER? If I am sick.
WHAT COLOR ARE YOUR EYES? Brown
DO YOU LIKE YOUR LIFE? Eh it could be worse
ARE YOU PSYCHIC? I have had premonitions before and quite frequently
HAVE YOU READ CATCHER IN THE RYE? No
DO YOU PLAY ANY INSTRUMENTS? Trumpet and Sax a lil
HAVE YOU EVER STOLEN MONEY? No.
CAN YOU SNOWBOARD? No
DO YOU LIKE CAMPING? Never been
DO YOU SNORT WHEN YOU LAUGH? No
DO YOU BELIEVE IN MAGIC? Yes
ARE DOGS A MAN’S BEST FRIEND? They can be but so can't people
DO YOU BELIEVE IN DIVORCE? Yes no one deserves to be miserable if they can help it
CAN YOU DO THE MOONWALK? No.
DO YOU MAKE A LOT OF MISTAKES? I have made my fair share and I am trying not to repeat them
IS IT COLD OUTSIDE TODAY? Right now its 43*F outside
WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE? Hamburger
DO YOU WEAR NAIL POLISH? No
HOW MANY PEOPLE DO YOU LIKE RIGHT NOW? A fair amount
WHAT’S THE MOST ANNOYING TV COMMERCIAL? Way too many to name
FAVORITE SONG AT THE MOMENT? My Wish By Rascal Flatts

Emotional Eating

I hear people talk about they eat when they are emotional you know like mad, angry, depressed things like that I never do that I eat the most when I am bored..And being home all day long well geesh how much more bored can you possibly get...I don't eat alot of junk food or fried food I actually eat things that are good for me but the only downside is my lack of ability to exercise which I have got to find a way to get that done...I happen to be an impulse buyer when it comes to candy and other sweets I want to know does anyone else do this ? I will want some candy or other assorted sweet get it home and then not want it and it will sit there for weeks on end until I either trash it or the boyfriend eats it..It drives me crazy that I do that but I have no idea why I do it...I think if I figure it out I may actually be able to take astep forward...But on the upside in 6 days that being Nov 27th I will be soda free for 3 month I am hoping I can keep this up now if only I can get the rest of my eating under control wouldn't life be grand

Honestly Speaking

I gotta say right now I am so not loving life(don't worry I'm not thinking about doing anything dumb) Right now I am in a funk and see no end in sight at the moment and it's driving me crazy.. I am just so fed up with somethings now which I will explain later. My weight is one of them I am at my highest weight ever in my life and it fuckin sucks I haven't stepped on a scale in years I am guessing I am over the 400 mark a place I NEVER thought I would be..I am so angry that I have let myself get this big...I ma angry at my back for being fucked up and not being able to walk & I am pissed that my legs are now messed up with this lymphodemia and it makes walking harder. This is so not where I wanted to be when I was 27 not by any means..I have been stressing about other crap left and right and of course with stress comes eating so that isn't good...Plus being at home all day isn't helping either I been trying to find a at home job since it's hard to get out but to no avail I got nothing so far...But I am not giving up on getting myself healthy I know no one can do it for me only I can...I need to find leg exercises things I can do while I sit down and buy some weights so I can exercise my arms...I know for sure I have got to start eating better I am stil going strong on the no soda now if I could be that way on other things I shouldn't be eating...I haven't been taking my bp meds so I know the Dr is gonna have a cow when I go see her...Well I am done with this bitch fest for now back to your regual scheduled programming I am going to try and blog more frequently from now on.

Catch-Up

Man I am kicking myself in the ass now for taking so long to get back to this blog when I first started it I told myself I was going to keep up on it and not slack off well I guess I goofed up on that one now didn't I.....But I have to say the end of Oct beginning of Nov has been the few weeks from hell life decided to drop some bombs one on top of the other a few things have been taken care of just waiting for the other shoe to drop on the final situation I am so hoping for the best....Well I have been thinking of going back to school to get a college degree. I will have to do it online for now but something is better then nothing..I will have to come back again tonight and blog more I have alot of things on my mind that I need to get off but there are a few things I need to take care of...